sick :(

We all are sick around here! Craig started with a runny nose on Thursday, then Saturday morning i woke up with it and now, Trevor is getting it! i was really hoping i would be feeling better for school tomorrow, but I'm not planning on it. poor Craig has been even grumpier! aww! he is definitely in his terrible twos early (and i noticed getting another tooth in). don't worry. i still love the boy! This was Craig playing outside on Thursday. i am getting so bummed that it is getting dark earlier! this was before 7:30 and it was dark!! i love letting Craig play outside, especially once it gets not quite so scorching hot outside. but it feels so late when it gets dark. the good side, that means one of these days, it might start to cool off!

so, it has been quite a while since Craig went down this slide in my parents backyard. but a month ago, he would climb all the way up it and come down all on his own, no worries (at least on his part. . . a little scary to me). this night, he refused to go down the slide on his own! i had to hold his hand the whole way down. so weird. Craig is very independent and it was funny to me that he just sat there on the top of the slide until i helped him slide down.



so, on Thursday night, i really had a meltdown. i just felt like my kinder class is out of control!! i was pretty desperate and had had a couple of pretty bad days. i felt myself getting somewhat out of control and didn't like it. i want these kids to have a good experience in kindergarten and so far, i don't know if they have. i was able to talk to some other ladies who are also kinder teachers and they reassured me that it will continue getting better. and it was. on Friday, i finally had a microphone (which really helps!!! try talking over 27 kids who will not listen!) and i was able to continue to focus on rewarding the good behavior. but it is a slow process. i hope i remember when my kids (in the future, there will be more, but no announcements just yet.) are going off to school, i hope i remember how those teachers feel and give them much gratitude in the future.

and it is partly the class. I'm trying to rearrange the seating chart, and i don't even know where to start! i want to move a talkative kid away, but there are so many of them, that I'm finding it impossible. and for most of them, this is the first very structured experience they have had and there are a lot of adjustments.

a couple different people at the school have asked me, on different occasions, to just please come back tomorrow! even on the worst of days, i know i will be back. it's not a question. i really wish i could stick with them the whole year. i know it seems really odd, and i know it would be a very difficult year, but each of those kids have different personalities and fun sides and i know i could help them all. we'll see what happens.