life goes on

well, i have survived!! actually, we have. Still prego, and ok with it, besides the uncomfortable part.

I ended one year and started a brand new one! so many changes for me and they seem to be going pretty good. I am loving having only 15 students!!! the day is pretty long most of the time, but it could be worse. and of course, it still does not end just because I leave school. i have so much to do all the time and things never get done. but that's life.

last week, dr guessed the baby to already be 8 pounds. but things are looking good and I finally asked him questions and found out things should be ok labor wise with him.

craig is being watched by his aunt nini! she is great, it's just an adjustment for me. I drop him off around 7:15 and don't pick him up until 4:30. he is growing up and changing so much!! he is getting taller, heavier and learning so many words. his most recent giggle is saying the batman theme! na na na na na na na batman! tonight in the bathtub, he added batman shark! he's so goofy! we laugh so much because of him.

Trevor is keeping busy! he has a new calling that i will talk more about in our private blog. i'm not sure how he feels about it yet, but it seems to be going ok. he's working with my dad though and that can be tricky. they get along fine, it's just my dad is very spur of the moment and sometimes not as reliable.

I have great teachers that I am working with at my new school and everyone sure is helping me out great! i think i might finally have a substitute lined up for when i go on maternity leave (seeing as it could happen at anytime!!!!). i'm kinda hoping i make it to open house next week, but trevor mentioned that unless i am still in the hospital or in labor, i could probably figure out a way to go anyway. it's kinda tricky not knowing when this thing is going to happen. oh well.

last time, i lucked out and was just focusing on getting my finals finished and the night i was done, i went into labor. so i didn't really have to guess... not that i remember.

i'm having contractions, but nothing serious. i have another appointment tomorrow, so i will see how much more things are doing.

well, i'm supposed to be recording grades, not blogging, so i will stop. or go to sleep. i'm not sure. ha ha ha :)

some fun- repost

somehow i deleted this post. oops.

I have a job next year. there are pros and cons.
I will be in a first grade classroom, working full-time, at a new school, just across jones from my school right now. I'm getting more excited thinking of things i will be doing next year, but it's a lot of work!! there a lot i don't have. o=well, that's for another time.

We have had some fun recently! we had some time this last week and walked around bass pro shop! it was ok. mainly just fish in tanks. we did see a duck too and sharks. it was free, so that was nice.
then, we went to king putt on Friday night! it was fun. i'm never one for taking the game too seriously and waiting much. there were a couple people in front of us going a little slow.... and stopping to take pictures with 2 other groups behind them. BUT, we jumped ahead of them all and got out of there pretty quickly. it was fun, but a really little place. each shot was about 10 feet. and the next one was right next to it. it was a blacklight place.

I have discovered that Craig really was pretty nice to me. When I was pregnant, he never really kicked too hard. this little guy, he is a kicker! he likes to prove how strong he is. on Saturday i had my last new teacher conference and one of the boring classes, i just watched my tummy and see when he kicked. it was fun. he really is getting stronger and stronger!

Trevor recently decided to buzz his hair off. it's been a couple of days, but I'm just barely posting about it. i didn't think I'd like it, but it's not completely gone and i do like it! it's a change and change is always nice.

Craig's favorite number is fourteen! he was 'reading' the airbag sign in my car on Friday and apparently it says 14 and then he proceeded to 'write' it down!! i love it! then on Saturday, hanging out with daddy, any number he saw was 14. it's at least a start.

no job

First off, some fun things. then, you can read news below. I was driving the other day and out of the blue, he starts conducting to my song!! i loved it and had to get a video. of course, i was driving, so sorry if the video is not as good of quality as i was focusing on not crashing.

NEWS-
i went tonight- frantically! to a high school here and sat and sat. the meeting started at 4 and i got there at 4:15 ish. then, around 4:30 the ONE half-time job was taken by a teacher. around 4:45 the other h/t teacher from my school got called up and we found out you give them your slip and then get to leave. Then, i sat around until 5:30 when they called my number.

SO it will be about 3 MORE WEEKS! uggh! someone will call within the next couple of days and then it will be a while. There will be a lot of moving people around (mostly in high school and middle school since those people are so exclusive on what they can and cannot teach. not a fun time to be a recently hired music teacher or something.

Craig is a grumpy little boy at times, but he is growing. he called me today when he and daddy were coming back to pick me up. He is becoming quite a talker. I could not understand everything he said, but he was saying a lot. and it was words, it's just over the phone, I couldn't figure it out. I really do love the boy, so thank goodness for precious moments like the video above.

Trevor is relieved to be done with school! ... as am I! He's still thinking about going back for his masters in the fall, and through county, they will help pay and make the process easier. but school is school. it all takes time and that's time he'd rather be relaxing or caring for his lovely wife... ha ha ha.

today was a hard day for me. I think it had to do with the frustration of tonight's meeting and Craig exerting his individualism. But i was on the verge of tears or had tears a lot today. luckily, my principal didn't come in and observe me and nothing drastic happened at school.

Here are some silly pics of Craig. He is allowed to eat in the living room on his towel, sometimes. also, him with a pillow, on the train or just to watch tv. he's silly.

Megan came over a little bit ago and somehow, Trevor ended up on the roof of the patio and then Craig wanted to too. so Megan got some shots of the two of them. that's one thing we miss a little. people just coming to visit. when living with my parents, of course we saw Luke and Megan all the time and we could just talk. now, no one ever comes over and we haven't really made any friends yet. we need to be more social, but life is so busy. anyway- here are my two wonderful boys.

no news and go with the flow

well, i have gone to several interviews and no news yet. Thursday is the last day for principals to hire and then surplus! it goes by seniority and from what i've heard, i go to a meeting and tell them what job i want and find out if it's still available. so, we will see. it's a waiting game. and since i HAVE to get a part-time job, it decreases my openings. since i'm currently working half-time, i have to switch to half-time for next year, or wait till all the people with full time jobs get placed first. so it lowers my chances. there at least 6 of us, all going for like 2 or 3 positions!

This week is CRAZY!! this is Trevor's LAST WEEK of his bachelor's degree!! his last class and presentation is on Friday. then, i have my first year teacher class on Wednesday night, then a school carnival on Thursday night! aah. we really are missing a second car right now, trying to figure out how on earth we all are going to get where we need to be. Trevor has group meetings almost every night this week, trying to finalize their project. and then figuring out who will watch Craig while I have class and if Trevor has to meet. o-well. it'll all work out, but thank goodness for family.

it's just a waiting game. trying not to worry about things, but that's life. it's like a song i hear on the radio every once in a while. sounds like life to me!!

Craig is growing up so much!! he is talking more and more. yesterday, we picked him up from Anita and Grandma Ross. In the car, he was starting to fall asleep and we had to stop to grab some food to eat. Then, we get out to eat and he is HYPER!! he runs inside jumping jumping and doesn't stop until 10 minutes later. then, we get back in the car, and and is talking loudly and goofing around and a minute later he's quiet and fast asleep! i love that boy!

updates and finally a picture

the baby's dr appointment went well. heartbeat is good and Craig and I even heard the baby kick! I been feeling a little not myself (but nothing I can really complain about... considering how lucky I am with no sickness). I've just been a little dizzy when standing for too long and people have been saying i look paler than normal. But the dr didn't say anything about low iron.

i have called all 5 of the schools in the valley that have a half-time job open, but no interviews scheduled yet. Most of them are asking for my evaluations (from my principal) and so that makes me doubt that they'd want me. When there are other available teachers who have worked longer and got better reviews. o-well. I gotta try.

Craig is growing up so fast and learning so much so fast!! I finally cut his hair again and wow he really needed it. two saturdays ago, it was so nice outside, Trevor was working on our semi-dead grass and Craig just rode his bike around out front and loved it!! then, this other pic, he likes to put toilet paper around his head. he's so silly.

We were able to go to the brandts baptism and it was very special. They are a family we know from the dad working with my dad. Megan, Luke, Dad and I were able to sing a song at their baptism and it reminds me how much i really enjoy singing with them. It was so easy!! we practiced the morning of and it was a hymn, but it really sounded pretty good and was so fun!! i love singing when there isn't very much pressure. and we are family so our voices blended very well.

Trevor is doing good, just tired of his last class and ready to be done with school. he's so great for Craig and I. Last night i was laying with Craig before putting him in his bed and I just thought how glad i am that I married such a wonderful man.

jobs

guess what!!

TREVOR got his job!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!

that means we can look at houses and figure out how to grow up!! Thank you everyone who has prayed for us. we appreciate all of your love!

Fun times

We have been having fun. My kinder class is on track break still, so I have afternoon's off, but am subbing for a maternity leave in the morning. it's been nice to be done at 12.

Craig has found a fun place he likes to play! in my parent's backyard, he likes to play in an old garden box next to these bricks. there's some dirt there and he just loves it! My dad and Luke have been working on emptying the pool and cleaning it (his annual tradition). Craig has been watching them. the other night, he was helping Aunt Heidi sweep the dirt out. He's so much fun!

Trevor is getting an interview set up and hopefully, we will hear about a full time job for him soon. I was able to go in and sign papers and was officially hired!! i am staying at the school i am at and am so happy!!

update

Some good news and some ok news! the short result is: . . . . . . I am staying at the school I am at, with the half day kindergarten. i will still be subbing for maternity leave until about the end of November. the long story is below.

I had an interview with an elementary school across town at Charleston and I-95. It went wonderful, i loved the principal and assistant principal. it would be a full time job, one kindergarten class all day. However, I didn't feel good about it. i would be gone practically all day everyday, except on track breaks, which that class already went on.

Craig has been having a hard time when we leave. I've mentioned it before, but it is not getting much better. he's ok usually when he stays with Grandma Kady, because it is still the same house and she cuddles him a lot. and we haven't been over to Aunt Nene's recently, but i think he cries a little there too. but the hardest thing for me, is when I pull up to a good friend's house, Jade, he starts crying and does not want to get out of the car even! Then he hollers and cries very loudly when i leave. eventually he does get settled down and play, but when i come pick him up, he wants to cuddle and leave right away.

Because of that, I took the half-day job with the school I am at. I feel really good about it and i think it will help me be better at home and at work.

I have been leaving him his entire life. I had school classes, i had my practicum and then my student teaching and he was always fine. Every once in a while, he would cry, but he would be fine in a little while. now, he is always very sad when we leave. I now I need to work on attachment because that is the issue. but i really feel that this will help. I prayed really hard about this and i feel that for our entire family, it will be better if i take the job that I am at already.

On to the ok news! I already have a substitute license and I had to add an endorsement that would allow me to teach. well, i did it in August, but i called them and they said it would take 16 weeks to get it back to me!!!! AAHHH! are you kidding me! so i was supposed to keep my receipt, but all it was was my cashier's check receipt and no one told me to keep it in order to get hired. hopefully, the principal can call and make sure that things are going on and they will hire me anyway. if not, I can't get hired until DECEMBER, but would just be subbing until then. so, we will see what happens, but at least I know what school i will be at and I know my class, the handful of kids, but they are mine!

busy busy busy and my dear sweet boy

this week seems to have flown by! craig is being good. he is so sweet. last night, we were getting him ready for bed and after we said our prayer Trevor told him to say goodnight to me, so he puts his hand on my cheek and rubs it a little! it was precious!!! i love that little boy! then, he likes to read a book before bed and sometimes lays down with it. he totally put it under his arm, cuddling with a book. i'm so glad he loves reading already.

This morning

last week, all the teachers that were already hired but were surplus got moved around. so hopefully, this week, i will get calls and figure out relatively soon (within a couple weeks) what is going on and where i will be working. hopefully, full time, but a half day job is better than no job.

i am very busy, still substituting in both a morning and afternoon class for now, and it seems like i am always making mistakes. i had a little boy get hurt and didn't send him to the nurses and the mom got upset. i felt pretty dumb. but life goes on. i have decided that i need to be happy! i have happy times, but working and school has not been making me happy and i just need to decide that i will be happy there. i know it will still be tough, but i can enjoy it and i need to, otherwise i don't want to keep working. so my goal this week is to work on my patience, both in class and at home with craig and to be happy! when asked how's it going, i need to reply, really good, or great or wonderful. not "i'm surviving". I know that Heavenly Father wants me to be happy and it is my choice, so that is my choice.

AAAH! and fun with Craig

so, i was back in my class (you know, the class I'm substituting in, at least) today after a three day weekend and OH my goodness! it was scary! i saw some great improvement in some kids, but had a difficult day, overall. i know it will keep getting better, but today was definitely difficult. i almost feel like it was worse than my first day. probably not, but close to last Tuesday! but don't worry, i still like teaching!

we went to watch airplanes take off at the airport today. it was so cute! Craig loved it so much! anything that happened, a cop car went by inside the fence, a plane landed, took off, a car drove by, the little girl in the other car walked around. he would say "WOW" and point to it! we had so much fun being there with him and seeing him enjoy everything around us!

anytime we hear an airplane, he looks for it in the sky! i don't know how he knew it, but he figured out the best way to get his daddy to absolutely LOVE him. Trevor loves airplanes and so of course, Craig loves them too.

also, Craig has been conducting to music more often. i lead the music every Sunday in our ward and so he sees me, but he has been conducting music outside of the church setting too. it's so fun.

bobbing the head

Craig was able to go play with Aunt Nini (Anita) today! he always has so much fun with her and plays so much! he was tired on the drive home and i thought he was going to sleep, because he put his head down, his chin touching his chest. well, the music got a little louder and he started bobbing his head to the music and did it the rest of the way home, basically! it was so funny!

then, Trevor had out a ladder and Craig wanted to climb on it. it was ok for a minute, but he was able to reach Trevor's dresser, so i had to get him down, and him being so tired, he was not very happy. but then he got to play OUTSIDE!! yay!

well, i survived my first week of kindergarten! i had help every single day, but it is definitely getting better each day. i have a couple of handfuls, but they are still a good class. last night i couldn't go to sleep because i kept thinking about ways i could better help individual students! i really do enjoy teaching and helping kids learn!

Rain and more

This post is a little more of a journal, so feel free to skim. We got adorable pictures with crystal if you're interested. i will post them as soon as we get them back!!! yay for crystal!! see older posts for info.

Craig loves to put shoes on! he sees some and just puts them on, no matter whose they are. He saw Trevor's shoes and put them on and was so cute, i had to get a picture!

On Monday, it rained!! yay! it started out raining a good amount, but then it slowed down and was just a drizzle for a long time. it was so fun! Craig went out into it this time and stayed! he thought it was so fun to walk around in the rain!

These last couple of pictures are of Craig just being fun! he found a bin and emptied it all out and sat in it!! then, he was being silly with the chair and needed a picture. The high squeel at the beginning of the video is really Craig!! he is so silly sometimes! i think he might have been laughing a little too in the squeel!

Last, he has this big beach ball, that i bought for less than a dollar. well, i blew it up and it got flat really soon! it ended up having two or more holes in it! the black tape didn't really help. so every time he brings it to someone, we blow it up again, then he throws it around, and eventually ends up jumping on it and it is flat again. (jumps so his belly is on it and it rolls a little) this boy is so much fun for us!

I think i forgot to mention, but we took an overnight trip to st. George for our anniversary, thanks to my mom watching him, and when we came back, it was so fun to see Craig! it was so good to get a little break. i still missed him a little, but it was wonderful to come back and enjoy being with him even more!! i am very lucky! Craig and Trevor are such blessings in my life!

School is going good. I have one pm class right now and they are quite the handful, but i think things will be good. definitely a good experience to have. it is the third day of school and second day i have been there. yesterday was pretty miserable. We had about 3-5 adults in the room the whole time and it was still quite the handful! today, i had one lady with me the entire day and it was ok. we still have a couple difficulties (language barriers and others) but things will work out. tomorrow will be even better.

it's a little scary to think that i get to do this beginning of the new school year all over again when track 1 comes back and i take over for the maternity leave. but we'll see! at least i'll have a better idea for next time!

updates

I got a substituting job, a hair cut and have been married for three years! thank you thank you thank you!!! i felt so loved reading everyone's comments and knowing people were praying for us!


i get to substitute for a half-day kindergarten pm class at marion earl elementary and the am teacher will go on maternity leave spetember 15th and i can take over her class too! so things really worked out for us. I sure do need to keep up my faith because Heavenly Father is always watching over. eventually, the freeze will be over and i can get hired as a teacher.
i was able to get my hair cut thursday, before we left for st. george. i love getting hair cuts so much! i always put the date in my calendar so i know exactly when it's exactly three months! they always straighten my hair for me and it is just enough of a change. i love my curly hair, but it is fun for a change for a day or two. it is a little shorter than i usually do, but i cut it about this short four years ago, when i first cut about 10 inches off. i really like it. that night, thursday, we went over to Anita's and swam and craig splashed me, helping me decide to have it curly the next day.